From the second I wake up I think, “What will I eat for breakfast? What am I going to wear today? What am I doing tonight? What is happening next month? Where will I be a year from now?”. All throughout middle school I wanted to be in high school. All throughout highschool I wanted to be in college. All throughout college I wanted a real job. As I look back on my years I think to myself, “The grass always seemed greener on the other side.”. Growing up and maturing is no doubt an exciting part of life but I am faced with the conviction to be content in the present moment. I need to learn how to take in exactly what is happening in the moment, not looking ahead and not looking back. Recently, I have arrived at the root of my lack of contentment. I believe that if I don’t think about the future it will never come or my future won’t be successful. God has so gently given me Matthew 6:25-27 to help me out of my false thoughts. The passage reads,
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? -Matthew 6:25-27
To follow my conviction to be content my prayer each morning has been, “Lord, I am choosing to live in the present moment. I want to see what you are doing in this minute. I don’t want my thoughts to wonder what you will do in the next thirty minutes or the next hours. I want to see what your doing with my life in this minute. Help me Lord! “. I often have to pray this throughout the day because I go back to my natural way of thinking. Twice this week God has taught me contentment through two different situations.
After talking and praying with my boyfriend, Todd, about my lack of contentment we walked into his mom’s house. His 4 year old niece was whimsically riding her scooter in circles outside. The next minute she asked someone to get her bike and began riding her bike in circles. Then the next minute she was laughing and running around. Todd looked at me and said, “This is how God wants you to to be!”. No, I am not saying God wants me riding scooters and bikes in circles. I am saying that God wants me to be free! He wants me to enjoy the present moment, right where I am. Even if that present moment doesn’t seem “productive” or future worthy.
After praying during my drive to school I arrived at school. I was stopped by a fourth grade student. [The conversation went like this, Student-“Is college fun?” Me-“It is fun but somedays it can be boring and other days it can be really challenging.”. Student- “I can’t wait to be in college!” Me- “Why? College isn’t much different than fourth grade. Enjoy fourth grade while you can!” Student- “No, I bet college is awesome! Fourth grade is no fun!”] I thought to myself, “God, this is exactly what I sound like, isn’t it? How pathetic!”
Whatever stage of life you are in, enjoy it. Whether you are in a season of joy or a
season of trial, enjoy it. Soak in every moment. You will never get back this minute. Hear and believe God say, “Be content my child.”